Day 5 with Teresa Ann:
WHAT ARE THE DESIRES OF YOUR HEART?
When you hear the question, “What are the desires of your heart?” What say you?
I admit that most of the time my desires have not been of eternal value. They were of monetary rhetoric; the kind which moth eat and rust destroys as recorded in the gospel of Matthew (Matthew 6:19-24).
This whole blog entry began this morning due to a simple word search for REJOICE that set me on course to a DIVINE “rabbit trail”. It was an adventurous path that simply wooed me to hunger for more of a desire to fellowship with GOD. The internet search led to me none other than a write up from the early 1900’s from the church to it’s congregants. It was a “newsletter” of sorts from May, 1921, titled, “The Latter Rain Evangel” and it was subtitled, “The Days of Heaven On The Earth”.
This newsletter written so long ago was speaking even past the far reaching of what we would call, “now”. I was in awe of the order of writings and how every point was as an arrow that pointed the church back to the Father God by looking to Jesus as they allowed the Holy Spirit to baptize them with fire and passion for GOD and the lost.
As I read the updates on a particular Chinese man, who happened to be a high ranking general, I was in awe of the report from the missionary to China. This particular general had been converted because of him witnessing a particular woman who said “Slay me but spare them.” She died and yet her death caused resurrection life in so many from that moment on. It became the ripple effect of many high ranking military men within China to pursue the heart of GOD like no one had ever seen. To the point when their enemies surrendered, one of the generals gave each surrendered soldier money to go back home as their lives were spared with the Gospel being preached, so these soldiers who had surrendered would know the love of GOD with tangible evidence. Even as I read this newsletter, it was as though I became a witness of these Chinese military men who were converted by the love of GOD shown through a few missionaries. They began to even see their time of war as a mission field in the midst of the battlefield.
It led me to greater awe of all these months that GOD has had me parked in Luke 6:27-38; Matthew 5:44-48; Proverbs 25:21-22; Romans 12:9-21, it was outrageously inspiring, to see their lives demonstrate the goodness of GOD that leads man to repentance. They were revealing the Kingdom of GOD within the earth by loving their enemies.
With all that said, when the missionary was with many of the men within the Chinese military, they had a prayer meeting and before prayer they were all studying Matthew chapters 18-20. After reading, the missionary began to ask these powerful men, “What are your deepest desires of your hearts? Please state them before we go into prayer.”
Their answers awakened me to the core:
One general answered, “My greatest wish before GOD is that all 9,000 of my men may turn to the LORD.” Then a colonel answered, “Mine is that we may have grace given us to live lives so genuine that we will commend this salvation of the Lord Jesus to all men.” Another colonel spoke up and said, “That GOD may use our brigade to convert all the soldiers of China.” Then the general and the three colonels led in prayer among others.
REFLECTION WITH HOLY SPIRIT:
Psalm 37:4, “Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.”
LET’S TALK:
When we delight in who GOD is, our desires begin to align with His…do you remember a time in which your desires shifted to His? If so, would you be willing to share by commenting?
The desire of my heart is to allow the Holy Spirit to break the boxes I put him in. I want to see the same power that rose Jesus from the dead used to give abundant life to women suffering abuse all over the world. My desire to is step out (again) in faith that he is who he says he is and he WILL do what he says he will do! He is not man that he should lie. We serve an amazing God, my desire is to lay down and let him have the glory in my life!
So beautiful! Thank you for sharing…that desire, yet again points me to the Father! Carrissa, thank you for taking the time to read and leave your Holy Spirit insight! Come on!!!
My desires began to align with His when I wrote this scripture and placed it in my home where I could see and read it daily. Romans 12:2 “Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.” God has also been highlighting scriptures that are of being a Godly woman as a wife and mother, which are my greatest desires. I grew up with not the greatest examples but God has revealed His Word filled with truth, has my answers and not the world.
I really loved this sentence, “They began to even see their time of war as a mission field in the midst of the battlefield.” Out of a pure God-inspiration moment (definitely not my idea), my son and I decided that we would use his time in the hospital (that spanned a few years) to bless people and share God’s love. It became an appointment to serve and not just show up to be clobbered on. I realized later that this God-idea was also a lot just for us because it helped shift our perspective and gave us the courage to press in and provided joy and a positive distraction. However, today I went through something way smaller than a major surgery. I was annoyed like I haven’t been in a long time and it was all I could do to simmer down. Although I tried, I didn’t perform my best. Simply because I didn’t maintain peace. God’s grace covers this, but there will be another chance that I’ll “get” to practice missions in the midst of the battlefield – even if that battlefield is pure annoyance.
That is so good Celina…”Even if that battlefield is pure annoyance.”