DAY 51 with Teresa Ann:
The story behind the painting:
Two days ago I heard, “Teresa, you’re getting the revelation of MY “WITHIN YOU” power. I Am Within you.”
Before I go any further, let me take you back to September 2018. I had just gotten this GOD IDEA that I would write a children’s book for my grandson, who was born the month before (August). Even the story behind having a grandson is a testimony of GOD’s grace. I struggled for years in wanting to have this genuine relationship with my “bonus son”. I wanted to feel that connection that I had “given birth” to him being that it was obvious even to him that I was partial to my daughter. Here he was my husband’s son from a previous relationship and then my husband and I had our daughter together.
That early morning of August 2018, when Nicholas Ray was born, I went over to the little warming bed where the nurses were taking his vitals; his little cry gripped my heart as for months before his arrival I begged GOD to give me a connection to this baby because there was a lack thereof on my part toward my bonus son.
It was miraculous; supernatural as the moment I stood by the side of that warming bed, I grabbed a hold of Nicholas Ray’s little hand and this surge of overwhelming love came through me and I had this seeming impartation of redemption like none other…that was the moment I saw my “bonus son” as my son and saw his son as truly my grandson.
So September I begin writing this book and then in October, Celina felt led to launch Godly Chitchat in Wichita, Kansas. That alone was supernatural as Carrie Robaina, Celina and myself were all connected to Wichita in such a sweet way. We all lived there at one time and it was as though GOD was giving us an opportunity to sow into that city. Well after leaving to go back to our families, we departed to our cities onto our connecting flights and when I was waiting for my next connection. Celina and I were on the phone together and she began to share these visions that GOD had placed within her regarding some things that HE had placed even within me. In this she said that she saw a children’s book; one for girls and the other for boys; and little did she know about the idea in writing a book for my grandson. So I began to tell her and then we began dreaming about an illustrator and that is when I thought of an amazing illustrator and got so excited.
After our phone conversation, creativity of GOD stirred and even in that HE reminded me of the impartation from March 2004 when Lisa Bevere by the Spirit’s power imparted, “Boldness and creativity”.
So as I had this illustrator in mind, I got home and a few days later contacted my friend, Heather Blü. She loved the concept and wanted to do it. We prayed together and I know in that moment the Holy Spirit showed me that she would not be the one to illustrate. As a few weeks went by, that word I had gotten was confirmed with Heather Blü so kindly letting me know that she was not able to do it as she had hoped. Yet there was that peace because as much as I wanted her to, I knew that it wasn’t supposed to be. However little did I know what would happen next. In that moment the Holy Spirit said something like this, “Teresa, I Am going to teach you how to draw. It will seem elementary, you embrace it as it will bring delight.” I knew in that moment that if HE wanted to HE could just draw through me and make it look so incredible; yet the point was that HE was teaching me.
In all of this, I accepted the challenge to believe HIM and began to find out a tiny glimpse of HIS ‘Within me” power. It’s me truly being a witness of HIS power through me. It’s resting in HIM to say, “Yes” with willingness and that would be my position to allow HIM to do the rest.
So last month I completed my grandson’s children’s book with illustrations and all and it is truly anointed by HIM. I say that because they are not the best drawings; however there is this holy purity, this evidence that “GOD IS HERE” upon every page.
Well in all of this, it leads up to last week in having this idea to prophetically paint by way of worship. I saw in this vision a corner of a canvas with these vibrant colors and could see all the colors I needed to paint. This is something that was never on my radar…EVER! So I shared with my friend Celina what I heard about painting and that I had received specific instruction to go to the craft store the next day to buy what I needed. She encouraged me and we knew it was a done deal.
Yet again I could hear the Father’s voice, “You’re getting revelation of the “Within You” power.” I remember just whispering, “Yes Lord, I believe YOU.”
So as I was preparing the next morning to go shop, I asked Holy Spirit for a list of things and HE plainly said, “You’ll know when you get there. Teresa, you’re learning how to do this life with ME as I Am within you.” I got a little ansy at first as I thought, “I just want a simple list.”
The next morning as I was preparing for the day. My daughter and I had a podcast interview and then I was meeting with a friend for a few hours. I text my friend and said, “Good morning! I got a crazy idea! I was instructed to get a canvas and paints at a local craft store. I thought I would it in my studio. But then had an idea to perhaps bring and paint close to the riverbank in your backyard. I know there may not be water, but had an idea to listen to the song, “Defender” and just paint after we visit.” She responded with, “Let’s do it! I have paints and brushes already.”
Upon arrival we visited for a bit, I shared with her what I was instructed and I was led to buy these materials and the canvas and paints were none other than a brand called, “Master’s Touch”. I was sharing with her that I am learning more and more the power of GOD WHO lives within us. Even conveying it like this, “We are like a walking “portal” as we have the Kingdom of GOD within, so wherever we go, HIS Spirit changes everything. Everywhere we go, HE makes it better through us.”
Here is the aftermath of our drawings…my friend who painted hers had no idea what she was going to paint and then Holy Spirit began to use her hands to create this moment in which she was able to capture the vision in which she had seen JESUS in a vision. It was the very riverbank that we were close to while painting. Yet she didn’t have view of what she was painting; so when she was done this is what it looked like.
Then in my painting, my hand began to start swirling because I knew it was to be a canvas that captured the movement of Holy Spirit, and wow did it ever! Seriously, my friend and I truly experienced being “witnesses” of HIS power through us as His vessels that just showed up. It causes me to see Ephesians 3:20 in a magnified way, “GOD will do the exceedingly abundantly above all that we could ever ask, hope or imagine according to the power that works WITHIN US.” It’s yet again the “within us” that is displayed outside of us that reveals the exceedingly abundant…isn’t this amazing!
So on my painting here is the interpretation…and then my friend’s pithy, short but sweet interpretation:
“During the refining (orange), we receive revelation (blue) of GOD’s endless, eternal and incomprehensible love (Pink) that revels revelations of Who HE is. In Him is where we receive our identity (Pink) as HE is wooing us to deeper intimacy (Pink) and being walking “portals” of heaven, where we get to reveal the Kingdom of GOD (Purple) in righteousness (White), joy (Yellow) and peace (White) in the Holy Spirit.”
Notice the overall theme of the painting has hues of gold which represents GOD’s GLORY. You will also see green which represents new beginnings, praise, growth, prosperity, flourishing and restoration.
There is also yellow which represents faith, glory of GOD, anointing and joy.
My friend’s version of the interpretation:
MOVEMENT – instant traveling and transportation of the Kingdom to earth through HIS vessels.
Thank you for your time in reading as I wanted to be intentional about the “why” behind all of this so that people know it is Almighty GOD allowing us to be a witness of HIS power through us. It is simple so that we stay humble in HIM. For HE opposes the proud but so loves to exalt the humble. The ones who know their great need of HIM at every moment of their every days for the rest of their lives on this earth; I wonder if this is what it means to be poor in spirit, for they shall inherit the earth (Matthew 5).