Unconventional; not based on or conforming to what is generally done or believed.
Opening my eyes as I would awake to a new day. Grabbing my phone off the night stand and looking to see who had engaged my posts from the day before.
It was a habit in which it reminded me of the days I would grab a cigarette and puff my day away. Phone in hand, inspiration stirring as I would write my revelations of what GOD had shown me. Posting with a click of a button into the cyber world. Yet as I look back, who was I really connecting with? I’ve gotten so used to scrolling by people in my news feed within seconds as though I knew everything about them, with one picture.
Now let me just say, I still believe that social media can be a great resource, however for me personally, for a number of weeks, I was getting this “nudge”, “Teresa, remove yourself from Facebook and Instagram.” Striking back with fear I would immediately say, “No way! I can’t do that.”
Then after a few times in which I would be scrolling and posting, GOD allowed me to see my motive being on there as HE so kindly showed me, I was equating my value with the followers and likes. Now let me tell you, if the number of likes and followers were what measured my value; oh goodness, it would be a pathetic portfolio of what not to do. I write that while laughing as it sounds so absurd. Doesn’t it?
Then I heard the whisper that hit a sore spot, “Teresa, you still want man’s approval and yet you have disregarded how I have already approved of you.” I love what my friend’s son says, “Conviction is simply an invitation to come to GOD.” So I saw the invitation and came running to HIM with excitement, “Lord! I don’t want to be concerned with needing approval from man; but help me with this. Lord, you know my heart far better than I do.” I felt like the man, recorded in the gospels in which HE wanted Jesus to heal his son from being thrown into the water and fire as he said, “I believe, but help me with my unbelief.” I was in that conundrum of sorts.
Now normally GOD would show me my heart and let me continue doing what I was doing; however this time, it was a clear, concise message, “Remove yourself…I want to do the unconventional. You are going to see ME in ways you never imagined.”
So with that said, I am so excited to keep you updated as to what GOD reveals about HIMSELF in the midst.
In the meantime, Let’s Talk. Will you share your revelatory moments by commenting below?
Thank you for continuing on this journey with me. It’s going to look different and yet I am so excited to say the least.
This is so, so good and reminder for us to really consider why we do the things we do…even scrolling through social media. The analogy between puffing the day and scrolling the day away is powerful! I am inspired by your obedience to God!
Carrie, thank you so much for your feedback. It has been an awakening to say the least. I love you lady and your life of obedience is amazing!